Monday, March 12, 2007

Thanks Guys!

I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for all of the prayer for my Mom and my family, it is appreciated. I was spending all of my time ranting on my last entry that when I read it, I wanted at first to take it off, but then I thought, no, that's how I feel too. But I just wanted to mention how wonderful all of my friends and family have been. I received E-cards, voicemail, snail mail, visits, telephone calls--all of which were comforting and I thank you all. I am so grateful that I am surrounded by such fantastic people in my life.

A Sad Time

My family has been going through a really rough time. My Mom has passed away. She was 51 years-old. I held it together through all of the stuff that surrounds a death, the calling hours at the funeral home, the funeral, burial, and the planning for all of it. But in reality, I'm really really mad. I'm not mad at anyone in general, I'm just mad about all of the things we are going to miss with my Mom. She won't be there when I pick out my wedding dress(if I ever get to wear one), or if I happen to have a child. I won't be able to ask her for her advice about any of these things either. All of the things that a girl asks her mother advice about, and I am going to have to do them without my Mom. And that just pisses me off.

I know life isn't fair. Believe me, I've gone through enough crap in my 31 years on this earth to know that, but I didn't expect to be motherless so young.

Friday, March 02, 2007

Life Goes On...At Least That's What I'm Told.

The fun times never end. My family has gone through this before, I was 19 at the time, and we lost my Grandfather to cancer. Now, I'm 31 and we're about to lose my Mother to it. She has fought the good fight, but she is worn-out and her body cannot take any more of the treatments. It's very sad because, aside from the fact that she is my Mom, she is very young, only 51 years-old.

I keep feeling sorry for myself. And I shouldn't. I should revel in the time that we have left with her, but it is still very hard. No family should have to go through this.