It's That Time of Year Again...

My Birthday is a week away (woo hoo). I'm really not feeling it this year. I don't really want to be 32 to begin with, and the month hasn't exactly started out with a bang. Actually, this year is really turning out to be sucky (other than my "new guy" Mike, that's one of the few good things right now). And I don't think there's enough Birthday cake in the free world to change my mind.

Thanks Guys!

I just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone for all of the prayer for my Mom and my family, it is appreciated. I was spending all of my time ranting on my last entry that when I read it, I wanted at first to take it off, but then I thought, no, that's how I feel too. But I just wanted to mention how wonderful all of my friends and family have been. I received E-cards, voicemail, snail mail, visits, telephone calls--all of which were comforting and I thank you all. I am so grateful that I am surrounded by such fantastic people in my life.

A Sad Time

My family has been going through a really rough time. My Mom has passed away. She was 51 years-old. I held it together through all of the stuff that surrounds a death, the calling hours at the funeral home, the funeral, burial, and the planning for all of it. But in reality, I'm really really mad. I'm not mad at anyone in general, I'm just mad about all of the things we are going to miss with my Mom. She won't be there when I pick out my wedding dress(if I ever get to wear one), or if I happen to have a child. I won't be able to ask her for her advice about any of these things either. All of the things that a girl asks her mother advice about, and I am going to have to do them without my Mom. And that just pisses me off.

I know life isn't fair. Believe me, I've gone through enough crap in my 31 years on this earth to know that, but I didn't expect to be motherless so young.

Life Goes On...At Least That's What I'm Told.

The fun times never end. My family has gone through this before, I was 19 at the time, and we lost my Grandfather to cancer. Now, I'm 31 and we're about to lose my Mother to it. She has fought the good fight, but she is worn-out and her body cannot take any more of the treatments. It's very sad because, aside from the fact that she is my Mom, she is very young, only 51 years-old.

I keep feeling sorry for myself. And I shouldn't. I should revel in the time that we have left with her, but it is still very hard. No family should have to go through this.

Bring On 2007!!!!!

I am so happy to see 2006 go. It was one of the crappiest years of my life! Between my Mom being sick, and the breakup, I've never in my life been so happy to bring in a new year. I have wonderful news to report. I've met someone new, and so far his resume has been very impressive. Now all of you that know Chet, I'm hoping that you'll give Mike a chance...he's very nice. And you guys know that I hope that Chet finds someone just as wonderful. I'll always wish that for him. He deserves to be completely happy. And before one more person asks me...yes I miss him. I dated him for almost 10 1/2 years! Of course I miss him, how could I not? And no, I haven't talked to him recently. But I hope that all is well with him, and I hope to see him sometime soon.

As some of you may know, my Mom made a return trip to the hospital between Thanksgiving and Christmas. The cancer has moved from her lung to her brain, and she needed to start radiation all over again. This has been pretty hard on my family and especially on her. She thought that she was done...only to have to start all over. Plus her short term memory is a little iffy, she basically cannot remember about a month of her life. So, I would appreciate any and all prayer on her behalf. Again, she is doing much better now though.

My Aunt Diane (Mom's sister) is also struggling with Cancer. Her treatment begins this month, and hopefully will run smoothly and she'll be back to her old self soon. Prayer for her as well.

I'll be glad to put the year of gloom (2006) out of the picture...2007 has got to be better!